Oh my birthday pie

:) Today was the busiest and most productive day I've had in weeks (and when I say that I mean it... even though i've been pretty productive lately.)

I ate decently today (besides splitting Tiramisu with JT - but we did split and it is his bday!) well was... im writing this after midnight so its no longer his bday technically.

In addition to eating well I cleaned the house (which was so filthy I was beginning to feel disgusted...) did some homework, pulled together some bday stuff for JT, went to class, had a job interview (went really well by the way - it was at Chase bank.) had dinner with JT at a GREAT restaurant and did some more homework. Oh and watched a movie! :) haha The nice thing about the productiveness of my day is that is was actually quite fun. :)

Tomorrow I am getting my hair cut. Any of you who are reading this and have seen me in the last 3 years know that my hair is almost to my butt... its time for a change. WIsh I had ANY idea what I was going to do... haha. Ill definitely post pictures! :)

I can't wait to start walking/jogging again this week. My knee still hurts but it IS feeling better today :) And Carolyn gave me some good advice (stop trying to overdo it so quickly!) Very sound advice, thank you. Im a little worried about this week's weigh in. We'll see I guess!

Thanks for reading!!!

much work - little play

Today was a very homework intensive day again! This is what I get for waiting until the last minute to do everything! lol!

I did go to softball today and had a decent practice. I feel absolutely disgusting though. I really feel fat and gross. Its such an awful feeling :( I just wish it wasn't so damn hard to lose weight. Its a constant struggle that I am so tired of having. I enjoy eating - but I constantly have to monitor what I put into my mouth because if I look at something fattening it somehow makes its way into my love handles, thighs and arms. :( bleah.

I will persist though. Its all I can really do. I just wanted to check in. I could really use some words of encouragement though if anyone has any to offer. :) thanks for your continued support. <3

Saturday

Another long day of school work!! haha. A productive day though. And although I took another day off of running (seriously... all excuses aside, my knee is gynormo... there is A LOT of fluid in it... it sucks.) But I DID play some disc golf!

I found an interesting article to share :

http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/love-handles-to-killer-abs.htm

Thoughts on the article?

In addition to school work and disc golf today, I went to a going away party for my friend Kelsey. :) It was so fun and I met some great people. They are all "hippie" type people and real into eating organic etc... VERY COOL.

Tomorrow will be more school work, softball and more school work. I really hope I can run a little this week - Im a bit concerned about our run on May 2! I will walk that crap if I have too! haha I want my viking helmet! :)

thank you for reading - hope you enjoy the article I posted!

LOoooong school day

These days are always work productive, but not great for my workout/eating plan. I didn't eat badly today, but I didn't feel as in control and I would like to be. And I worked so hard at school all day that I just didn't have the energy to run (and I am so sore... my knee is literally throbbing.)

I did make the decision today though, not to be stressed anymore. I think that is one of my problems. I allow myself to be so stressed that it impedes my weight loss efforts. I found this article which I thought was quite interesting and informational - http://stress.about.com/od/stresshealth/a/weightgain.htm

The only way for me to alleviate this problem is to just stop stressing (easier said than done I bet! haha) But I am going to make and effort. I am also going to try to make smaller, better goals so that I can reach some and feel more motivated. I am going to work on those tonight and post them tomorrow.

How is everyone's weight loss/better health and fitness lifestyle going? Please share! :)

Thank you so much for reading!!

Day 3

Another decent day. Took running off for my bodies sake and instead played a round of disc golf with JT. :) So that was fun! :)

We went grocery shopping tonight! So I am VERY excited that we have good, whole foods in the house to EAT and snack on! :) Tomorrow is a long day at school - but I will run after my night class <3 and then rather than weigh in this week, I am going to wait until next week. Id like to see a big number on my first weigh in day back. :) I will also re-tape myself so I can start new with my measurements.

It is unreal how difficult it is to find normal foods without modified this, hydrogenated that... I am just floored at how "processed" our society has become. We looked at every single ingredients list tonight though and I feel great. :)

I read an article in my Women's health today that said Milk is the BEST post-workout snack. It said in a research study, women who drank milk after a workout lost weight, whereas women who drank sports drinks after a workout generally gained weight. The study showed that the Milk was a natural fat burner and muscle repairer. I know you're not a big milk fan Carolyn, and personally I don't drink much milk - but I wanted to share that bit of info in case anyone else swears by milk. :)

I am way more sore than usual! haha IT is crazy! I need to find something besides ibuprofin to help me feel less miserable! any suggestions? fish oil?

Thank for reading! <3

successful

YAY! I had a very successful first day back! :)

I logged my food, drank more water AND ran again! Although, the run SUCKED today... even worse than yesterday haha. I still ran the ENTIRE 2 miles. I will probably walk at a fast pace tomorrow or run one lap, walk one lap etc... to give my knees and back a rest (and my neck... my form is AWFUL right now so I am SO sore!)

It feels so good to be back at it again. Just having something to work toward feels good - its something I can't even really express... i just feel great being on track. I will say however, that my food is BS still. I ate too many sweety type things and not enough protein. JT and I are going to do a little shopping tonight so we'll have some good snacks in the house. I HAVE been eating a lot of almonds though Mel! :) haha

So I think since it is obvious to me that I will be able to run the 5K no problem, I think i might set a goal for myself to finish. I have to figure out what it will be because its not a normal 5K - but i'd like to push myself so that JT gets a great run in too.

Anyone read any good fitness articles lately? If so, could you share them!? :) I need some good - fitness reading! :) <3

Thank you so much for reading!

Recommitted.

Although I have written several papers this evening, and the last thing I want to do is write, I promised some friends (and myself) that I would recommit myself to writing tonight. I am good for my word. (sorry it wasn't yesterday Terrina ... im good on my word to a point...)

Things have been going ok on this end. I am not where I'd like to be - I am supposed to be at my goal weight of 144 tomorrow... and Im 25 lbs. off still. I am proud to say I have not gone back into the 170's, but not having any progress at all makes me feel sick.

On a good note, I have begun my 5K workout training. I can pretty steadily run 2 miles. I don't stop at all, but its pretty difficult near the end. I think ill be able to do the 5K comfortably when its time though based on where I currently stand.

Also on a good note, we've weeded out all of the CRAP out of cupboards. We got rid of everything that had High Fructose corn syrup, modified whatever, aspertame etc... and we've started buying whole foods. It feels great! Now if we could stop getting fast food again we'd be golden! haha!

My goals for this week are to run EVERY SINGLE DAY, log my calories starting tomorrow, and to drink enough water. Hopefully I can lose a pound or two by the end of the week and get back on track fully. I WILL be 144 by the time I go to the bahamas! I haven't forgotten my goals and even though im not on target, I won't quit.

Terrina wrote and told me she has lost some weight! WOO HOO!!! I am SO proud for her! <3 One thing she noted, and I have said again and again and posted articles about etc... is how important food intake is. She works out constantly and said it was changing her diet that helped her actually lose weight. Thank you SO much for being a motivator T - and for being on me to post again. You girls too Vicky, Jenn and Carolyn! haha

From this day forward (best I can!) I will write and stay on track. PLEASE help me as you have before! <3